vanlife confessions

Confession: I have been in some hotels recently.

It’s been triple digits some, but even in the 90s and even sometimes in the upper 80s, driving the van is unbearable. Foxy has no AC, and if it’s hot enough outside (and with the big, hot engine), the fan just blows hot air. Hops pants and goes glassy-eyed, and I start to panic. We’re miserable. The nights tend to be survivable, but the daytimes just aren’t, especially if we have to drive. I am feeling some guilt and shame about buckling and paying for hotel rooms. But you know what? There are no rules for this lifestyle except the ones I set myself. And, funny thing, back when I first conceived of this trip I thought I might spend as much as one night a week in a hotel room or an Airbnb. I haven’t done anything like that. (I’ve also paid for more camping than I originally expected to.) I’m not on a mission of purity here; I’m trying to live my own best life and do what makes sense to me. And this last week, it has made sense to be in some hotel rooms. I still feel some guilt and shame about this, but I’m trying not to. I don’t even know where this voice in my head comes from. If you’re following this blog because you’re looking for a vanlife purist who never goes indoors, it’s time for you to move along.

some days this is what “on the road” looks like

Now that I’ve gotten all that off my chest… it has been delightful to wallow in the air conditioning, and having power and (sometimes) wifi is pretty dreamy, too. I’m calling it a vacation from this life which feels awfully like a vacation. And we are getting ready to move into a dorm, because this week – actually, by the time you read this it will have already started – I’ll be at the summer residency for West Virginia Wesleyan College’s low-residency MFA program in Buckhannon, WV. This is the program I graduated from in January; now I’m back serving as residency assistant, which comes with free room and board and allows me to attend all the morning seminars. I’m looking forward to doing some laundry. It’s funny how the dorm suddenly looks like a luxury! I remember being at the winter residency, back at the beginning of vanlife, when I graduated: folks were doing their usual grumbling about the dorm situation, which is admittedly roughing it, for a bunch of adults with settled lives in houses and apartments and such. I remember thinking, come summer, this is going to look sooooo good… and so it does. So, although we are very much living out of a van, we’re taking a little hiatus from sleeping in it. And that’s okay. Hear me? Okay.

While I’m at residency I expect to be very busy, and the travel-related content I try to share on this blog will be limited. I may take a week or more off from posting here; don’t worry.

And after res, I’ll only have two weeks or so before I start a lease on a place to live in Buckhannon, where I’ll start teaching in August. More to come on that major life change… in late July, then, I’ll be wandering around West Virginia, looking for the coolest temperatures (elevation! lakes!) and ruminating on what these seven months and counting on the road have meant. We are in the twilight days, of this trip at least. For those of you who have been following along, do you have any questions for me about how vanlife works or what I’ve seen along the way? You can leave a comment here, or use this contact form for privacy if you prefer.

2 thoughts on “vanlife confessions

  1. I think we learn so much about ourselves when we have the opportunity to watch ourselves reacting to adversity, usually imposed on us by the outside world, when harrowing experiences reveal a raw courage we didn’t know we had. Or, a self-reliance that surprises and empowers. Or, an appreciation for humor or irony tucked away in our otherwise straight-laced, buttoned-down lives. Those are valuable lessons. But, when the adversity comes from our own strategic doing, that adds a whole other layer of observation and self-awareness. I very much appreciate you sharing those thoughts and revealing yourself to the reader in this way. The intimacy you created in your writing was palpable. I hope even while you are not traveling, you continue to share yourself in this way.

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